lost and alone
the rain is your only friend
hiding the tears you cry
hiding the fact that your heart breaks
and that your soul is dead
swallowing your grief
endlessly pouring
down down down
as your tears
open memories
ones you want to erase
you keep walking
keep crying
as you leave your soul
to bleed
and scream to the wind
"its not okay"
calling for help
calling for love
calling for the pain to stop
and all the while the rain falls
silently comforting you
while hiding the tears
you cry
over lost love
broken dreams
and a single
shattered
soul
As i recall
his parting words
must i accept
his fate?
or behold
the willow from the ground.
And as he lays
upon the ground
and writes his words
of faith,
as images seep for
upon his page.
As winds creep
over his face
he writes the play
for truth,
and yet he knows
that love dies.
And as he leaves
this hallowed ground
the willows gone
in time,
for nothing lives
except to die.
And so the sun sinks
beneath the sweltering mountains
letting the night escape,
letting the air breathe,
and letting the human heart
slumber.
But as with all cycles
the sun rises,
the mountains crumble,
and the heart aches,
longing for the day
in which
freedom isn't a pivlage,
beauty isn't required,
and love truley conquers all.
Looking down,
creeping into destiny,
watching in fascination
as my fear leaves me.
I arrive at the bottom
no expectations,
then the songs
in my soul.
I look into faces
trust, honesty, future,
and I get a sense,
a sense of mystery.
I look around,
up in the trees,
hearing the creek,
and peering through the woods.
Then I see the raven.
Mysterious, beautiful, unworldly,
and I know in my soul
that I am him.
And the raven flys off
leaving me empowered,
as i climb to my destiny,
Awakened, Curious, then Gone.
When we all fall down
Spinning faster
Faster
And never getting up
We lose sight
Of the things that
Make us
Human.
For we are mortal beings
Prone to forget,
Learning to lose,
With everything to gain,
But we still fall down.
Are our worlds to fast?
Are we to blame?
Or is the world just meant
To make us
And break us?
Just whatever you do
Keep spinning
For when we all fall down
It will be to late . . .
i see the ledge
yet i can't stop . . .
i see the end
as i fall into the abyss.
there is no bottom,
no sides,
no ending,
just eternity . . . alone.
alone with memories
of days gone by,
loves won,
lives lost,
and the pieces fall out of place.
So just sit there
and watch me fall,
watch in your pittyless life
watch as beauty dies
and watch as love leaves.
for when someone falls
and no one is there
to catch them . . .
. . .
. . .
. . .
they keep on falling . . .
The Tapestry - A Self Portrait by OracleofNight, literature
Literature
The Tapestry - A Self Portrait
I spin the web of my life
the truths
the lives
the judgments made.
I add in the power of spirit
the loves lost
the lives saved
and the pain in both.
I weave in the world
the family
the lonliness
and the tears.
An image starts to appear . . .
I keep weaveing
keep adding
keep joining the ends
realizing this is not my life.
This is the web of hundreds.
The web of people hurt
people pained
people lost
and people loved.
The tapestry is almost done . . .
I cry over lost words,
things not accomplished,
love that went by,
and people I lost.
I cry over the torn,
the hurt,
the pained ones,
and those not remember.
The tap
When all he said
was nothing at all,
and compared you to everyone . . .
and never catches you when you fall.
he would shot down you dreams
and kill your love,
and with the dying eyes
you saw him,
the fallen angel.
Laying on the ground
bleeding his tears,
and all you want,
is to make him feel loved.
Should you go?
Should you stay?
should you wipe his tears away?
should you tell him it will be alright?
shoudl you put up a fight?
Then you realize . . .
he doesn't want to be helped
or hurt
or loved . . .
he just wants you to see,
see what he has become,
see what he is,
see his pain,
see him with his broken wings
lo
This will be
whatever you make it
the good or the bad
or the ugly.
This will be
how your soul takes flight,
stays and fights,
or withers and dies.
So how does it feel
now that you're in control,
learning to live,
starting to breathe?
Because the good is in the bad,
the soul will always soar,
this is as good as it gets.
She runs down the stairs,
And trips and falls,
She runs out the door,
The shadows she calls.
Panic stricken,
A deer in headlights,
Running all over,
With no were to hide.
The things are following,
Out of shadows they fly,
The darkness cascading over her,
She quivers and cries.
"I am not your queen!"
She cries to them all,
"Take back your crown,
Or the empire will fall!"
The shadows stop,
Not one breath,
Frightened by life,
Threatened by death.
But on and on the shadows will fly,
Over the mountains, invading the sky.
They grab their goddess,
With their deathlike hold,
They drag her back,
To her hell of old.
She fights
Running Asleep, Sleeping Awake by OracleofNight, literature
Literature
Running Asleep, Sleeping Awake
Turning around,
Spinning, falling,
Faster and faster,
The world crumbles down.
The sun comes up,
Burning the sky,
The moon follows,
An icy ball,
As my hot world freezes.
Left alone in a blanket of night,
Like a soul lost in the abyss,
The abyss of time, no love,
No light.
I am running asleep,
Or sleeping awake,
I hope this is a nightmare,
But I don't want it to stop.
The wheel keeps turning,
Around and around,
Faster and faster,
More and more,
Then it breaks.
Maybe I could hide,
If I were invisible,
Maybe you would love me,
If I were invisible,
But I already am.
I laugh out loud,
The voices are funny,
Scary, happ
Drawn to me,
An absence of love,
Left right a way,
On the wings of a dove.
Found again,
Through the lost darkness shown,
Bright as a candle,
Whose flame is unknown.
Channeling spirits, spells, and more,
Her soul is what I once implored,
Brought to me by boundless fate,
What can I say? She came to late.
Hair as red as an eternal flame,
Eyes that shine and sparkle in fame,
Her soul flow from the mightiest sword,
She falls away, broken, adored.
She tried the fruit of death,
The mushrooms of gore,
She went to her world,
Of rain and storms.
She sang her songs,
And talked to the bees,
She slowly went crazy,
By talking to tree
For Elizabeth
Drinking up life,
Her pen is her sword,
Her hair is a fire,
Her soul a thorn.
One of ancient times untold,
Living, breathing, the world of old,
A goddess trapped in the sands of time,
Her lover to her, she will eternally bind.
A fairy strayed out of raining woods,
Battle the pixie for her lover's fate,
Enlist the help of the pumpkin king,
To destroy the pixie and make her eternally wait.
Her soul is the strongest,
Matching hearts creed,
When she lifted Excalibur,
She was set free.
Free to wander,
Free to roam,
Ever enticing,
The sounds of her moan.
But let me warn you,
From the rose that was born,
Forever
Trapped in her chaos,
her mind growing numb,
she's loosing her balance,
in your mind she will come.
She's trying to fine,
the answer to prayers,
but she already knows,
God is not there.
She's lost and alone,
but likes it that way,
for only alone,
can she have her say.
She cusses and spits,
is a true man at heart,
trapped in a body,
the crowds, her beauty will part.
She is now in the room
that her life revolved round,
ending her life,
saying no sound.
When they find the beauty,
in the middle of a crowd,
she has written in blood,
"Death Be Not Proud!"
Wandering through life,
the mists covering all,
they groan and they cry,
their tears cover all.
These men that i love
wish no harm to me,
but would not be seen,
even by thee.
I look through the distance,
at these untouchable faces,
knowing that i,
am oly part of the races.
The races of men,
of weirdos and queers,
i'm wondering now
how to survive these years.
I just look on,
at those untouchable faces,
all i need now,
is to have some patience.
I see these men,
their love i crave,
but i will die knowing
my quest was in vain.
I look in the mirror,
and break the glass,
i tear up my wrists,
i cut and i slash.
And as i
She started off life
in the eye's of the world,
the little french girl,
with little brown curls.
Now she is a thing to be seen,
a force to be reckoned with,
her soul is not mean.
Her hair frames her face,
a light in the sky,
ripping open her world,
she jumps out and flies.
She flies to the moon,
her crystals are tears,
crying over the fact
of her loveless years.
Over mountains and streams,
and canyons she flies,
singing the eerie world's lullaby.
Lost in her world,
in a trap she is caught,
never to be seen,
lost forever in thought.
You can walk through the door,
that is marked "Ward D",
out to the balcony you wander,
It started out nice,
my way or not,
the day was all sunny,
the temp was not hot.
It started out nice,
those key words,
with bunnies and rabbits,
even some birds.
Then the sky got cloudy,
the day got red,
and all of a sudden,
i wasn't in bed.
I was running through a graveyard,
headstones in my way,
trying to speak
what i could not say.
And there she was,
the demonness from hell,
cracking a whip,
holding a bell.
"In case you get lost!"
she snarled at me,
i started to see,
i would never be free.
I ran on some more,
her following my tracks,
then i stopped,
death was a fact.
I turned around,
and she cut off my head,
s
all alone,
with no where to hide,
the world is alone,
with no one to confide.
one life,
one love,
torn apart,
by the heavens above.
soon it will be marked,
the love of a life,
left torn apart.
not by these hands,
their love was forced,
ended with tragedy
it had followed it's course.
why put life
in the hands of death?
ending the love,
shatterd at best.
as these two lovers,
together never to be,
making a vow,
that lasts eternally.
the pain of their heart
reflected the cuts of their wrists,
dead in each others arms,
being apart they would never risk.
loved at last
by the hands of him,
forever the want
is now not a whim.
the girl that he loves
will never know,
how far he will go
to keep her to him.
she is vain,
naive at best,
to think that the bruises
were only a test.
how far will he go,
is what she once asked,
now she is silent,
her eyes are just glass.
she finally leaves him,
her life for she fears,
just as she should,
for he shed not a tear.
now she has moved on,
a burst of intuition,
and suddenly a BOOM
from behind the partisian.
as the life blood flowed into a pool,
her vision then changed into two,
and the lasts words she said were,
"this is what it is lik
Tonight, I escape to my little secret garden
Where a knoll of white and purple crocus flowers
Creased gently in somber repose
Sway ever so sweetly between my fingertips, to and fro
Reminding me of my lonely thoughts, drifting alone
Under the silver moonlight and star flecked sky
The warm summer night air sweeps the willows nearby
As a fragile perfume gathers up around, into a scented breeze
Woven softly together by the little wings of light I see
As here and there, nimble fireflies swirl about
I am nestled here, amidst this pleasant alcove
On the edge of an indigo pond set starkly before me
Dreaming of love lost and gained, tim
Of Roses, Lies, and Tears by OracleofNight, literature
Literature
Of Roses, Lies, and Tears
have you ever clutched a thorny rose?
letting the blood seep out of woes,
finally hitting the bottomest low,
and the worst part is that it shows.
have you ever just stood in the dark?
feeling the power of loves sweet mark,
hearing the call of the deaths shadow lark,
walking through the shadow spirits arc.
have you ever wonderd why people lie?
pour out their hearts with the tears they cry,
try so hard but never manage to fly,
sit all alone watching the days go by.
have you ever worshiped the night?
been given the strength to start this last fight,
been overcome in an unearthly plight,
cry out your heart over the power of his mig
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